Today I did it.
I went down to the plane.
Borrowed a depth indicator from a scuba diver and went down.
I did not expect this, just wanted to measure how deep I get. After yesterday when I tried several times to find it.
And today there it was:
first I saw the back part, shining white in that depth.
Then the cabin.
I was so damn lucky.
Now I succeeded with my goal for this year.

And not to meantion how I felt these days.
Feels like someone's or somethin's givin me energy.
There can't be no other explanation for all these things that just work out.

And also my inner state, I've never felt so calm inside. This is probably the best week of this year for me.

I almost made fun of myself of beeing so positive. Where's all my pessimism and sarcasm gone.
Really don't know if it's only the effect of this one week of holidays.

Yesterday I watched 'As Good As It Gets' with Jack Nickolson. Another good reflection on 'stones' like me.

Everything I did this week just turned out well.
I have no fear of anything. Strange.
When I bought a bottle of whine 2 days ago I could not know that I was going to use it for tonights' dinner. So - everything made sense.
God knows, I'm fine.
How are you ?